Lament for the Death of Ignacio Sánchez Mejías

Up the bleachers goes Ignacio
with death on his shoulders.
He looks for dawn
and it isn’t dawn.
He looks for his sensible profile
and sleep confuses him.
He looks for his beautiful body
and finds his open blood.
Don’t ask me to see it!
I don’t want to feel the spurt
growing weaker by the moment,
the spurt that illumines
the seats and spills
on the hide of the thirsty crowd.
Who orders me to look!
Don’t make me see it!

His eyes didn’t close
when he saw the horns approach,
but the terrible mothers
raised their heads
and all through the cattle ranches
there was an air of secret orders
thrown to celestial bulls
by the foremen of pale mists.
There wasn’t a prince in Seville
who could compare,
no sword like his sword
nor a heart so real.
His strength was a river of lions,
his prudence a torso of marble.
An air of Andalusian Rome
gilded his head
where his smile was a rose
of salt and intelligence.
The great fighter of bulls!
The good mountaineer of the mountain!
How soft with the wheat stalk!
How hard with his spurs!
How tender with the dew!
How dazzling in the fair!
How grand with the last
banderillas of dusk!

But now he sleeps forever.
Now the grass and the moss
open with sure fingers
the flower of his skull.
And his blood comes singing:
singing through marshes and prairies,
sliding down shivering horns,
wandering soulless in fog,
stumbling on thousands of hoofs
like a long, dark, sorrowful tongue
to form a puddle of agony
by the Guadalquivir of the stars.
Oh white wall of Spain!
Oh black bull of sorrow!
Oh hard blood of Ignacio!
Oh nightingale of his veins!
No.
I don’t want to see it!
There is no chalice to hold it.
There are no swallows that drink it,
no frost of light to cool it,
no song or deluge of lilies,
no crystal to bathe it in silver.
No.
I don’t want to see it!